There is an ecosystem around me, it is the human experience. The hustle and bustle of life.
There is also an ecosystem inside me.
This is the one that matters.
This is the one that conditions the external ecosystem.
I am a mille-feuille.
Of emotions. Of experiences. Of joys. Of sorrows. Of love. Of wonderful experiences and devastating ones. Of violence, felt, given, received. Of severe post-traumatic stress which has been a trauma in itself. Of perseverance. Of rebirth.
A mille-feuille of life.
A mille-feuille of lives.
I am a mille-feuille of all these Maudes, those that shattered and those that have strength and resilience beyond measure.
There is no inner peace as long as there is a rejection of some of our inner parts. The suffering ones, the mean ones, the not-so-beautiful ones, the ones difficult to face.
I sat down and went to meet them.
To listen to them. To accept them. To embrace them. To free them from their burdens and memories. To reintegrate them.
The more I do this, the more the inner chaos transforms into inner peace.
An invaluable gift, from me to myself.
And in the meantime, my inner chaos belongs to me.
Far from the external ecosystem, from social conventions, from impatience, from solidarity, from frustrations, from support, from incomprehension, from encouragements.
No one else but me knows my inner chaos, in its entirety, in its depth, even those who have seen or heard certain pieces of my life puzzle.
I meet my inner chaos and express it on my own terms, at my own pace.
One part after another, one fragment after another, I meet myself in my wounds, I listen to them, I don’t try to suppress them, I go meet those parts of myself and I accompany them to reintegrate into the unity of my being.
Each reintegration brings back energy, peace, joy, love, gratitude.
It is a beautiful process, a journey from chaos to inner peace, with gifts at every step.
We cannot look at and embrace the beautiful, the light, if we cannot look at and embrace the dark, the difficult. The reintegration of our wounded parts allows the union of the two, and our peace, our strength, our spark of life are found there.
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To accompany you in retrieving parts of yourself that you have lost 🤍
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